Giving everything.

School starts Tuesday. This is exciting and terrifying at the same time. Memories of schedules, homework, and making lunches fill my brain as I watch the last lazy days of summer slip through my grasping hands. I think back over last year, and remember all we went through with our sweet Mayla. Her not feeling accepted, or 'enough'...she hates being different. We decided to let her do something that would make her feel special. People may look down on us for it- but we felt, as her parents, that it was healthy for her self esteem. We let her get a second earring holes. She has two cute pink studs on each ear. I also have spent the past 2 says, taking 6 hrs to put in over 200 microbraids so she could feel on her game for going back to school. I was telling two friends about this tonight, and said to them, "I would do ANYTHING to make her love herself and not care what other people think". Which I know may sound unhealthy, and they both know me and know I wouldn't do anything drastic (I won't even let her straighten her hair for goodness sake). There is something inside of me that wants her not to ever feel left out, or not accepted for who she is.

As I was driving home from dinner, I was thinking about what I had said again. And felt a small voice tell me- I felt the same way. I wanted you not to have to worry about mans acceptance or God's wrath. And so I did give everything...for you, my daughter.

Amazed at how much I am loved.